Weak Points

I wrote this in my journal last August: "I am low in energy, pursued by thoughts of failure and lack. I can clearly see how these energies seek weak points and points of imbalance and come into them to feed and to create more fear and more uncertainty."

This is not a pleasant subject, but then I'm not one to avoid unpleasantness when it leads to better understanding and a greater ability to flow with the changes we are moving through.

All energy seeks movement, expression and ultimately resolution. The energy of joy will move into us immediately upon being invited to do so and it will swell and fill the space available to it. The moment that we take that breath and call to joy, joy will come.

The same is true for other, less uplifting energies. But before going any further here I want to clarify something. The up and the down are not opposed. Nor is one good and the other bad. They are not opposed, it is rather that they dance together and together form the world - not only the up and the down, but the dark and the light, the love and the fear... all polar opposites work together. All polar opposites are God expressed in the world of three dimensional form and matter, time and space. It just doesn't seem like that when we struggle with our dualistic notions of what the world should be, what our experience should be, what life should be. Acceptance is key. It allows us to move beyond the yes/no of dualistic thinking and move into unity consciousness where ALL simply IS.

So, to continue, the energies of fear and uncertainty, worry, anxiety and doubt also seek movement, expression and ultimately resolution. They also will move into us the moment that they are invited to do so and will swell within us to fit the space available to them. They seek resolution and release, just as joy does, just as love does. Joy and love are resolved through acceptance of them, through expression of them. That's easy for us to do; we love love and enjoy joy. Fear and uncertainty, worry, anxiety and doubt are not nearly so pleasant for us. Dualistic thinking brings great difficulty to us when we are confronted by these energies. We tend to believe that we should not experience them at all, and so we move into resistance, into shame, into denial of them when they enter into our experience in the moment.

They come in at weak points, simply because we try to keep them outside of us as much as we possibly can. Since they seek movement, expression, resolution, and ultimately release, just as all energies do, they will move in when they can. We hold them at bay, yet when we weaken through illness, fatigue, or an upset to our equilibrium, in they come. Then what do we do?

If we are weakened enough to be unable to avoid it, or wise enough to allow ourselves to delve deeply into the experience, we become filled with it, until we don't know where we end and the energy of fear or uncertainty begins. We associate ourselves with it and find it very difficult to disengage, to realize that we are not the fear, not the doubt, not the anxiety.

When we are filled to overflowing with love, we are moved, we cry, we sound out our emotion, we express it. When we are filled to overflowing with fear, we are moved, but we tend to feel shame and to try to hide the fear from others and even from ourselves. This blocks its movement and contains it within us where it stays until it can be resolved and released. The energy of fear seeks movement, expression, resolution and release. It is not malevolent. It is not evil. It is not even dangerous. Our shame when fear fills us and our very real fear of fear itself is what causes the difficulty to us.

We have understood fear and its associates as something hateful, shameful and to be avoided at all cost for pretty much all of our lives. So breaking through that deeply conditioned response to it is a challenge. Releasing the shame is a start. There is nothing to be ashamed of. Fear is an energy. It is in the world just as love is. Breathing and expressing the fear is a great idea. Accepting it and sitting with it, listening to what it has to tell us, these take us from denial and attempts at repression of the fear to dealing with it in a way that ultimately allows its resolution and release.

Our weak points are cracks in a defensive system that is not necessary and that actually blocks the movement of fear and its associates through us. So our weak points are not 'bad' - that is just more dualistic thinking. ALL simply Is. Fear, anxiety, uncertainty, doubt and worry are energies seeking expression. They are part of the 360 degrees of our experience on this beloved planet. They are part of the colour wheel, so to speak. They are part of the world. They are as much a part of God-Being in the World as are joy, love, trust and peace. When we can get to the point where we treat them as divine energies without all of the baggage of dualistic thinking which has burdened our experience of them, we can move with them, moving them through us to resolution.

Every experience is sacred reality.