What Will I Create Next?

Suddenly, I have such a clear sense and appreciation for all the great creations with which I have gifted myself.

I trust that I am continuing to create my first choice, my highest good, my best way forward.

What will I create?

I realize that it has nothing to do with my mind. My mind didn't create my friendship with Lui, didn't create my job for Bert, or for Sharon Davis, or my friendship with Bobbie. My mind didn't even know that these people existed until they came into my life and offered me friendship, employment, blessings. My mind didn't create stillstream.com and its effortless, endless flow of peaceful music, or the joys of the path that I am on.

I feel teary about it all, because I am so grateful. My mind didn't create these solutions, these situations that were so perfect for my needs. I trust, and yet, I feel a bit out of the loop. It is my gnost, my spirit, if you want to use that word, my divine creator-being ability and knowing that create these solutions.

So, this is my truth: I do not know. I step into divine will. I trust.

I do not know. I trust.

The New Earth

You are God in the world when you love the world with compassion, when you feel that unconditional love, that peace, within you. By radiating these attributes of the divine, you embody the divine in the world.

When you feel that complete lack of fear, of ego-mind concerns, you are creating the New Earth just through your being.

You bring that divine energy to the world when you, as you are now, love the world. Your love for the world changes the world.

Feel the simple joy of being and doing whatever it is that you love to do.

Love unconditionally. Feel it within you and then radiate it outward. By doing this, you radiate the divine essence within you.

When you live in this way, you will feel ego concerns diminish, become thin and almost faded to the point of non-existence. Soon they will be completely gone.

Creation Through Feeling and Being

We are constantly creating our world. We create our situation, our surroundings, what we face, what faces us.

When we are no longer in resonance with what we have previously created for ourselves, a relationship, for example, or a job situation, we are then out of agreement, out of harmony with what surrounds us, and so we create again. We re-create.

It is not a fault, or a problem. It is not a failure. It is a recreation.

Most creation is co-creation. That is to say, most of the time, we are dancing with others rather than totally alone. There are some creations that are solo works, but most, the vast majority, are co-creations.

When we are co-creating, we put our delight, our joy, our preference and our love out into the world and we attend co-creation with other creator beings, aka, human beings.

(We can also create through fear, dread, worry and anxiety. Just thought that I would mention it. )

It is not, at the level of love and joy. at the level of soul-truth, a competitive thing; it is a constantly improvisational, immediate and connecting thing.

We send signals all the time, and beings respond whether they are aware of our signals or not. Sometimes, they are so far away, or so out of resonance with our signals, our frequency, that they are not aware of them. The signal is sent regardless. The world of energy responds to our energy.

This is creation. We create. We connect with like energies and we co-create by forming agreements with each other - energetic agreements. We don't need to be conscious of this. We don't need words for these agreements. In each moment, agreements are being made on subtle levels. When we are in physical proximity, we make these agreements on physical and overt levels as well.

We recreate whenever the creation that we had before no longer serves us, no longer resonates energetically with our energetic frequency.

Enjoy the creation, the co-creation and the re-creation. You do not err or fail when you choose a new frequency and create something different than you have known.

Nowhere Better

There is nowhere better than here now.

Many of us are trying to get to someplace else, to enjoy ourselves.... when we have... or when we are...

I see people leaving their lives to go somewhere else. They are excited and exhilerated to be doing this. I have wondered about this vacation of one's life, because I do not do this. I have not been on or in a vacation in decades. It is literally leaving one's life vacant while one goes somewhere else for a time. This is not the same as being one who travels and builds a life and a career or a calling upon that travel. This is literally vacating one's life. I did it many years ago and I remember how empty and sad my life seemed when I returned to it.

Vacation is also not the same thing as recreation. Recreation is literally re-creating your experience by creating something that excites you, that you feel passionate about and bringing that into your experience within the context of your life.

People associate the word 'recreation' with fun, and so it is. It is often a whole lot of fun. Recreation for me recently has been creating drumming circles and singing circles to share my passion for sound and rhythm with others. These activities re-animate my joy in simply being here, embodied upon this Earth at this time.

Another recreation for me these days has been the creation of a talk radio show brought to you world-wide through the internet. Look for us live on Saturday mornings at 11:00 Eastern time (Eastern North America), at www.BlogTalkRadio.com. Search for Talking Stick Radio on the BlogTalkRadio site and you'll find us very easily. My friend, Susan, and I are talking about empowerment of self and others through knowing and speaking one's truth in a safe circle of sharing and compassion. This is another recreation that is bringing great joy and therefore, new energy into my life.

I love the world. I love my life. I wouldn't trade this for anything. When I am completely honest with myself, there is nowhere else I would rather be and nothing else I would rather be doing. I live simply. I live quietly. I love the space in which I live and the way in which I live there.

I ground myself into my truth, into my life, more and more each day.

There is nowhere better than here. There is no time better than this moment. There is nothing, no experience, better than this one, right now.

Realization of Truth

I was trying not to deny anyone their truth, their reality.

I was, in fact, denying my own truth, always bending my energies and my perceptions to fit with other people's energies and other people's perceptions.

I realize now that I do not deny their truth when I affirm my own.

I do not deny their reality, when I affirm my own.

I do not deny their creations, their frequency, their world, when I affirm my own.

This realization is echoing through me now, echoing through my life.

I feel allowed to be all that I am. I feel that I allow myself to be all that I am now. And in doing this, I do not deny them.

I allow.

In the Moment

Now, in this moment, the house is bathed in brilliant sunshine and the colours are gorgeous. 

I hear a voice within me say, “But it’s not always like this...” And there is dissatisfaction, fear and anxiety in that voice. 

In this moment, I understand the complete futility and nonsense of that thought. It doesn’t matter what it was like or what it will be like; it only matters NOW what is. That is all.

Follow your bliss in the NOW. Court your magic in the MOMENT. Do what is most exciting for you right this instant. Now.

The past is healed in your joy NOW.

The future is created in your excitement, your joy, NOW.

That is all.

No One Gets Left Behind

When we choose, say, radiant happiness, we change the world. But we only change that manifestation of the almost infinite potentials. So if I choose radiant happiness, every other Lu, and every other person whom I would interact with can continue to explore other choices.

So what this means for me right now, is that when I make choices for myself, I am not limiting others. That version of my husband who is able to accompany me into radiant happiness and joy will do so. Other versions of my husband will not do so. They will be with other versions of me, those versions of me which did not choose radiant happiness. Therefore, if I choose radiant happiness and my husband chooses depression, he has not been abandoned. He will be with another version of Lu.

Therefore, I don't have to wait for him or for anyone. He will not be left behind. He will not be abandoned.

I've been holding back thinking that I am here for them, my husband, my mother, my best friend, thinking that I have to wait for them. I don't have to wait for them! I am free.

As I move forward, very quickly these days, into joy, bliss, unity and peace, I will be accompanied by a version of my husband, my mother, my friend, who is also joyful, blissful, in unity consciousness and peaceful. And if they cannot be that, then they will disappear from my reality. I'm free.

And this is how creation of our reality works. It isn't what surrounds us, but what we choose and what we believe will surround us that matters. Live as if it were true. Just assume that it will be. Or better yet, make it true within yourself and radiate the joy of that reality.

I always thought that was impossible because of other people and their beliefs about reality. Now, I understand that it is possible, because the version of them that I will experience will be compatible with that reality which I have chosen.

Each person, each I AM consciousness, chooses for itself. You can live in a healthier, happier and more peaceful world and you will then only experience people who share that world with you, who share that vision and that version of the world. And I've been seeing this more and more in my life.

These days, I am glowing with joy, happiness and bliss. I don't mind what happens. I am in peace. And I no longer have to wonder at all about the people whom I love and who are not feeling as I do. They will take what they choose to take of my joy, my happiness. I will experience only those who are compatible with my choice of reality. Each person gets to choose, in total freedom, his or her reality.

We are all free to choose at every moment.

Make Your Choice

There are so many stories, so many programs running, about what we are here on Earth and what we are doing here.

There is a program running through the collective consciousness of enslavement. It is a very strong program, a very strong story, that we can all feel to a greater or lesser extent. There is an associated program of victim and perpetrator, also known as ‘good guys and bad guys’ and we have run stories associated with this victim and perpetrator dynamic for millenia.

We receive much information, much of it conflicting information, about what we are and what we are doing here, especially at this time. We have also been told frequently that our discernment is very important at this time.

I choose to believe that whatever comes to me, as point of view, as story, as information, comes for a reason. Therefore, I will listen, or read, and then process the information, fitting it into my sense of what is true, what is worth paying attention to… I will ‘make sense’ of it.

Recently, something came to me which conflicted very strongly with my sense of why we are here and what we are doing here. This prompted me to write this text. This is my ‘sense’ of what we are and what we are doing here, where we came from and why.

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All that Is wished to know itself. All that Is therefore split/broke into a multitude of Isness being separate. Instead of being One Allness, All that Is became many Isness’s. And the game/experience of ‘Who Am I?’ began.

And this was a beautiful and terrible game/experience. Because for All to be Nothing was unfathomable, so an answer to the question ‘Who Am I?’ was a constant imperative. And one of the most compelling things to be is to be in opposition.

It is easy to push against something. So, as Universal Beings of Light, divine, creative and immortal, these Isness’s began to move either with or against each other, feeling the edges of their Isness. They were feeling what they were not, so as to better understand what they were. And there was a lot of pushing and bumping and at the level of divine creator being, this meant a great deal of movement, creation and destruction on vast scales to our human minds.

This went on for all of ‘Now Is’ until quite recently in the story of All-being. And it was felt by some that this served nothing and no one and was a block, a dead-end. We were all stuck in our attempts to return to the Oneness, yet honour the Isness which we had become.

Some were becoming more and more oriented toward cooperation rather than opposition, toward recreating the Oneness from which they had emerged through the energy of unconditional love while retaining their own Individuality as I Am’s.

Some continued to move toward more and more individuation, separation and definition as I Am not what you are.

There were two movements in the I Am’s, or individuated Isness’s, some moved toward Unity with ALL within the Self as unconditional love and some moved into even greater differentiation and separation from all that is not Self. Neither is better than the other. Both serve the ALL as ways to answer the question: What am I?

Some have labeled these two types of service as Service to Self or Service to Others.

Ultimately, all That Is as individuated I AM desires to return to the Oneness from which it has emerged, but in the interim, we play games, tell stories, create and destroy whole universes and experience, experience, experience.

Earth is a grand and novel experiment in one story, told from one point of view. Earth is a prison colony in another story, told from another point of view. Take your pick as to which one you will give your energy to.

Earth is populated with Divine Creator Beings, also called human beings, in various stages of awakening to their I AM beingness and their sovereignty. There are a tremendous number and variety of stories of enslavement, cruelty, and suffering on this planet. There are also a tremendous number and variety of stories of joy, love and triumph over terrible adversity. We are embodied and dense, slow, and only more or less aware, although this is changing. We have created stories, dramatic plays, poetry, novels, films, artwork and musical compositions, sculpture and even landscapes to express the fullness of our experiences on this planet. We love cliff-hangers with their great suspense. We love come-back stories, where one triumphs in the face of seemingly impossible odds. If experience is the currency of the Allness, we are incredibly rich.

I believe that experience is the currency of the Allness.  I believe that we are here to slow the vast and lightning quick creation and destruction and conquering and enslavement, the endless game of trying to steal energy, to amass a vast holding so that we become more and more and more until… what? Until finally we are All again. You can probably see my bias. I do not believe that this power over others will get us back to Allness. Indeed, it will not.

I believe that it is Love, the Love that Yeshua ben Joseph (aka Jesus Christ) brought here and that we have carried as a golden potential ever since, that will bring us back, ultimately, to the All from which we emerged. I can feel it in my heart and I am joyful within this feeling.

We are here, Divine Creator Beings, to slow and weigh ourselves so much that we can bring these creations and destructions, these acts of enslavement and degradation, torture and stealing of energy, into a slow enough pace that they can be truly seen for what they are, so that compassion and love for self and others can slowly emerge from the chaos of our strivings.

We mirror the universal battlegrounds of the All as Many trying to make sense of the task of answering the question, ‘What am I?’ We came here to do that.

We came from all over the galaxy and from further galaxies. We are supported by many who remain off-world but intent upon our doings, our becomings and our success in our work to bring a new energy into the universe.

We have been ‘quarantined’ from other worlds, from other Divine Creator Beings, for this work to be done. Those who have been screened from us, who have perceived the screening, have perhaps wondered at why it was there, have perhaps come up with their own stories about why it is/was there (for the screening is thinning, dissipating, dissolving now).

And this brings me to what I want to say here.

I believe that nothing happens for no reason. My friend brought to my attention a text of an ‘interview’ with an alien. (If you’d like to see it, you can google it, I suppose. I won’t provide the link here as I do not wish to do so.) This text is thought-provoking because it gives us the view of our planet and of our being here from the point of view of an off-world Divine Creator Being who is NOT part of this project, not as a human being on the planet, not as part of the angelic support group off-planet. So, we then are given a view of ourselves as we are seen by others who call us prisoners, trapped in servitude, crazy, perverted, etc. And it makes us question ourselves, and question our stories.

I believe that the Being who communicated in this interview is one who has grouped herself with a Service to Self group, believing that constant expansion through conquer and control of others is the ultimate path to Completion and Union or Reunion with the ALL. I believe this because of the focus on opposition to others that I perceive in this being through the communications provided in the interview transcript.

This kind of experience is perfect for us at this time. It is not surprising to me that this came to my attention now. This experience serves us. For the veil is lifting, the screen, the quarantine, is lifted and dissipating. There will be more of these encounters to come. And it is perhaps best for us to prepare ourselves for this.

For me, this preparation comes as growing clarity about what I Am and what I Am doing here and why. For me, this preparation culminates in knowing beyond all doubt and all questions the truth of my being Love and Compassion, of holding within that love and compassion the ALL. For we do not go Home to Union with the Divine; we bring Home and that blessed Union with the Divine into us and so into the world.  

What we have done, we have done for the Whole of the Multi-verse, the vast beingness that is the ALL. This is what I believe. Our work is largely done. We have created love and compassion. We have grown them and contrasted them to all else. We have, many of us, chosen Love as opposed to Fear, Service to Others as opposed to Service to Self. And when we feel into it, we can feel this new energy within us. I call it compassion. I call it unconditional love.

Some of those who come now to see what we are, will be deeply implicated in the stories of dominion and conquering, of opposition, of us versus them. These are the off-world ‘wars’ that we have heard about. This is the fifth dimensional ‘chaos’ that we have heard about. We are re-entering the galactic environment which is populated with these energies. Our choices remain the same. Do we choose love or fear? It is time, for those of us who open ourselves to these questions, these experiences, to make our choice knowing that we are not alone in the universe and that we are in no way less than the other Divine Creator Beings who populate the universe.

This is Interesting....

I've been feeling many emotions very strongly around the sense of not having done much with my life, not having achieved much, not having my creations, my prose, poetry, photographs, songs, artwork - be desired by others, be appreciated by others. I'm working with this right now.

There is ego-mind involved here - a strong ego need for recognition, so that ego can feed on that. There is also an issue, for me, of provision of abundance. If my achievements are limited, so limited, then so is my abundance. There is a part of me that believes that. Our need for recognition is tied to our sense of self-worth and our sense of self-worth is tied to our issues of abundance and enjoyment of what life has to offer.

I come to understand at a very deep level that I chose this non-achievement in the material sense for this lifetime as I chose to delve very deeply into the interior self, into self-awareness and self-actualization.

I chose to live ideas like unconditional love and honouring, compassion and total acceptance of all that is. So I chose a quiet, unassuming life, a 'little' life in the 3D view of things. I am simplifying here because it's really quite big, but there aren't enough words to convey the totality of it. My ego-mind self struggles against this limitation of my being seen in the world and doing things that are lauded and applauded. I chose to limit my doing so that I could concentrate on being.

So, I'm feeling my way into all of this, and working toward acceptance of this and transmutation of the ego-tripping part of this. My ego-mind self has been yelling and causing a ruckus and that is to be witnessed, honoured and understood. And I do understand it. Ego feels ripped off!

But, this morning, in quiet safe space, I gave my ego-mind a little taste of my I AM presence energy and it was really interesting, because ego got really quiet and felt different when I did that. Ego got very calm and accepting. So, this is interesting.

We come into this incarnation, this being in the world, with a certain soul level, divine self level, purpose and thus a sense of what is vital to this incarnational journey and it doesn't always jive with ego-mind or human consciousness perceptions of what is important or desirable.

Will I experience abundance? I already have and will again and again and again. The light that I shine as I AM here on this planet is a gift of great value and in return for that gift that I give, I receive abundance, grace, ease and joy. But I don't experience everything that my ego-mind wanted to experience. I was gonna be somebody!

It feels like a tragedy of promise and potential unfulfilled. It is a very very hard row to hoe, a hard life to experience. I would have had a much easier time of it if I had 'amounted to something' in the eyes of others, in the eyes of my family, my coworkers, my ego-mind self. My own ego-mind self judges me as being a failure. And this is what needs to be released and transmuted.

Last night, I realized that my sister and brother had judgemental and critical energy being sent to me when I was younger, and were doing that by agreement with me, as I wanted to be kept small, kept interior looking, self-critical, self-doubting and self-aware. I suppose that I internalized that judgement of myself. I choose to release that now, today.

So, I sat with that and worked with that for awhile and I have completely released that, and the anger of my ego-self aspect at not being able to experience ‘success’ and the recognition of others’ that I am successful. I’ve come to deep resolution of this and acceptance of this. I made these choices pre-incarnation. It has not been easy, but it has been absolutely worth it to become all that I have become. I have actually ‘succeeded’ in this incarnation 100%, and I am all that I should be now and always have been.

And this is true for everyone. We are all exactly where we should be all the time. We are all exactly as we should be all the time. It might not seem that way to our ego-minds or to our human consciousness.

Step into the I AM consciousness within you. Center yourself in your heart and your heart's truth to find it. When you have done this, introduce the I AM to your ego-mind, and see what happens.


 

What Are We Here For?

I just received an email from a friend who is struggling to make sense of his life.

He rarely expresses himself so openly and when he does, I treasure it because it speaks of his trust in me, in our friendship.

Well, I answered his email straight away with as much wisdom, compassion and unconditional love as I could possibly put into an email. I would do more, but he shuns closer contact. This is a person who struggles to look into the mirror. This is a person who doesn't always like himself, much less love himself.

As part of the email message that I sent to him, I encouraged him to trust our friendship enough to lean on me from time to time. I asked, "What do you think I am here for?" And then I answered my own question: That is what I am here for.

And this is what I want to say in this post: My heart is filled with love and joy to be able to help someone who is feeling sad or confused about his life, or is maybe judging himself and seeing that he comes up short of his own estimation of what he should be. All I want to do in this world is to be that friend, to be that counsellor, to be that person. That is what I am here for.

My heart is so full these days. My heart's love and wisdom is what I am here for.

What are you here for?

I know you will come to an answer that fills your heart with gladness, peace and joy.

I know that we are here to change this world, to make it a more loving place, a place that holds warmth for every single man, woman and child. I know that this world is ours to create.

That is what we are here for, all of us together.