Being Human

There is a process which we can choose to move through that will bring us to the heavenly experience of total self-love that I spoke of yesterday. It might seem self-indulgent to set out on this path, for it is so totally focused on the self, but please understand that we humans are wrapped around with feelings of guilt and fear, need and self-sacrifice and when one of us frees herself from these, she offers a doorway to freedom for many others. What you do as you move through this process, you do for more than just yourself. You do this for all who have dealings with you, all who love you and whom you love.

In all of us, feelings of guilt, perhaps of shame or victimization, feelings of being trapped or indebted in some way wrap themselves around us and permeate our sense of ourselves and the stories that we tell about how we live. Let us understand that these feelings are not permanent or fixed. They are fluid. They are moving. They rise up in us as if to say, "See me. Feel me. Acknowledge me. Above all, release me."

It is a process to move through, an allowance and an embrace of all that you are. Feelings of guilt, sorrow and shame are a good place to begin.  It is not easy to release these feelings. That part of you, that aspect, that feels the guilt, sorrow, regret or the shame has to recognize you for the conscious and aware, loving and compassionate self that you are now, has to thoroughly feel your love and compassion. That part of you has to come to feel your total acceptance of it. Then and only then can it allow itself to release the feeling by which it has been defined and begin to recreate itself, as it longs to do. All that is delights in constantly becoming and by acknowledging fully what it has been and accepting it, you release it to continue to change and grow, to become and become again. This is the sacred dance of all that is.

I have done a lot of this work as I walked in nature. That works well for me, but do whatever works well for you. You'll find the feelings that need to be acknowledged by listening to yourself. You can ask that they make themselves known to you. Speak to whatever comes up in you to be acknowledged. Remember to honour it as you would honour the same kind of feeling in another person. Allow it to feel your complete acceptance and unconditional love. This might take some time, and it might challenge you to suspend judgement and allow love to come in. Knowing that everything that is in the world comes from Source and is in fact an expression of Source may help you to feel that love for it.

You can use muscle testing to help you to direct your work with these feelings if you wish. You might want to know where this feeling originated and how deeply it permeates your experience of being in the world. Just loop your thumbs and forefingers together, right hand to left hand, to form a figure eight. Pull the hands away from each other. If the circle breaks, it is a 'no' and if the circle holds firm, it is a 'yes'. In this way, you can ask questions of yourself that go beyond the rational mind and into the muscles. You can trust the answers totally, or not, as you choose. You might use the answers you receive from this kind of questioning as a rough guide if that feels more comfortable to you. Either way, ask questions that delve into your truth and honour the answers that come, even if they shock you or trouble you. It's good to have an expanse of free time to do this. An hour or so should be enough, at least for one session. It helps to have a journal to write in, or a trusted friend in whom you can confide.

Whenever I think I've found it all and cleared it adequately, I ask if there is anything else that my self would like to show me or tell me. Often there is. Often I feel like I am too tired, too weary of the work that I have already done to process any more at that time, yet I ask the question anyway. I do this because I choose to have all of the parts and pieces of me come to trust me, to know that I will be there for them. There is nothing that we are or have ever been that is not worthy of our regard, our acceptance and our love. You'll feel the truth of that statement if you apply it, not to yourself, but to someone you love - your child, your sibling, your spouse. Feel it. If it is true for that person, then it must also be true for you.

After you have done this processing work, you will feel differently than you have ever felt in your life before doing that work. You will have released feelings of guilt, shame, regret and sorrow. You cannot help but to feel differently. You'll find your responses to things that happen are different as well. You have changed your being human in the world when you have done this work of self acceptance. It may be quite subtle, but it will actually change everything.

As time passes, you can continue to do this whenever you have the time and the inclination. Especially when feelings come up in you through the catalyst of some outside event, give yourself the time, make the time. This is important work! Release and release and release again. Mostly, you are releasing any sense of limitation, any past definition of self. You are releasing all notion of what you should be, what your life should be, so that it can be whatever you choose to have it be - in the moment. 

Breathing deeply and consciously becomes very important in this process. Breathing deeply moves the energy through you, enabling these feelings to rise up into your awareness and then to be released. Drinking plenty of water helps also.

This work of processing your feelings is self-focused, yes, but it is work that changes the world as it changes you. For you may not fully realize it right now, but you constantly and continuously make the world - we all do. By being who we are in the moment, interacting with the people, places and energies around us, we make this unending world.

I offer you my deepest esteem, and I bow to you.

Namaste.