Tough Times for Tough Light Workers

Spring is everywhere around me and I’m acutely aware of how quickly and inexorably I manifest from my frequency. 

My husband and I have both been volatile in the past few days, but doing well regardless.

About a week ago, the frequency of joy seemed effortless for me. Since Saturday, so about three days, it has felt almost, or actually, beyond reach. This reminds me of 2010 and I’m comparing my self then to myself now – which is kind of the point here as well. 

My 5^th D self is close and strong – a breath away. As I stepped out of doors yesterday and chose experience and acceptance of experience, I was there. 

Yet there’s an anxiety in me right now – I’m getting that it is not mine. I send unconditional love to this. I tell it, “You are safe. You are a vast and eternal being of love and light. And all you experience is your creation.” 

Still, that thread, that pulse of “what if” runs through my energetic body. And I ground it with violet light. 

Tough times for tough light workers as we show ourselves humanity’s absolute worst – not as something from way back or from far away, but from right here and right now. 

That violet light really did the trick – for now.  

Passion of Ascension

This passion I feel in my body and in my energy field is electric excitement and jumping joy, easy confidence, vast and capable compassion, ringing freedom, undeniable power and exultant connection and expansion – the whole of it sounding out in waves of symphonic wash and flow and radiance. 

There is no lack nor want in it. 

And this is so important that I repeat: There is no lack nor want in it. 

It fills me with pulsations of energy. 

And all I can do is embody it and create from it – not only on its forward edge, but spherically, multi-dimensionally ~ every lifetime, expression, emanation ~ every story infused and empowered, cradled, adored, blessed and coloured by that which I am now. 

The vast wisdom of compassion, the golden flow, going everywhere and permeating everything ~ I feel it as wisdom because I feel it as consciousness. 

It transforms this universe now, from here. 

Joy and Delight

My energetic frequency is joy and delight, complete faith, acceptance, surrender and flow. The surrender is a breathing into what is; it is a surrender to the here now both within and without.

I’m luxuriating in free time, being well rested, the -20 celsius stillness outside under a clear blue sky. I’m breathing into, sinking into, the relatively quiet time of mid-winter with great joy laughing and dancing within me. 

This new beingness dances joyfully with what is – whatever it is. 

And the gift that I gave to myself last April at Walden Pond, in that vast sky lit room, the gift of sitting with pen and paper with no expectation, I’m enjoying that gift right now. 

When I got home from that journey out and back, I realized that this place is as beautiful and peaceful, the energies as nurturing, as at Walden. In fact, here it is quieter. Here stretches such a luxurious skein of beauty, peace and plenty that I have no need or desire to go anywhere else. 

I remember sitting in that room ~ how I felt freedom and space to be ~ how precious these seemed, how dear; I feel them now ~ freedom and space to be, joy and delight. 

I’ve been in this state before ~ a state of apparently heightened appreciation. I’ve experienced this when driving or walking; it’s not so uncommon for me. Yet, I feel that I shift my being now such that this heightened appreciation is a constant within me. I noticed it on the drive to and from ~ especially from ~ Montreal the other day under a white sky surrounded by white snow, every tree branch a grace note as my husband and I sped along the snow-blown highway. I noticed it while visiting my mum and in the grocery store and at the singalong at Grace Church Hall and, indeed, at the singalong I led at the assisted living facility last week. I notice it more and more these days. 

I notice it as I look out, as I am here in this chair. I am no longer dependent on what is “outside” of me for what I feel aka what I experience. Like the refugee in a wheelchair experiencing life as joy; our song of higher dimensional freedom sounds in the world at this time. 

Personal Power

Joy. Joy so intense that it flows from me in streams. 

As I walked this morning in an exquisite landscape of snow and winter sky, I spoke to all the world’s darkness, fear, rage, hate, exclusion, judgments and all fear-based expressions.

And I said, “I see you. I hear you. I acknowledge you. Okay. Yes. And guess what? I will be love regardless. I will include you in that love. I will be joy and peace and understanding.”

And the fear wailed and roared and thrashed about.

And I said, “Yes. Even so.”

And the fear said, “I can kill you.”

And I laughed and said, “No. You cannot kill me. For I am eternal love that has no end. There is nothing more powerful than the love that I am. And guess what? You are this also. Yes. You are this love and you do not know it. But you will. One day soon, when you are ready. You will.”

And this is the level gaze of love incarnate, of divine love. 

And this level gaze is one option now, one way of looking at the world. This level gaze of love incarnate is one possible response. 

It is the way that a friend looks at a friend who is speaking her hard-earned truth. 

It is the way that we look at each other when we are being the wisest part of ourselves. 

It is what I now choose to be within myself. 

It feels like angel choirs and whale song and star light.

Yes. Even so. I will be this.

We Change the World

I have a compulsion to envision how we get from this – this world in which we currently find ourselves – to that – the Heaven on Earth which we hold in our hearts as some how possible. 

How? How do we get there from here?

Increasing compassion, acceptance, care for… and this is always one’s self and all others. When one has compassion for and acceptance of one’s self, one has these for all others as well. So, forgiveness.

And our past is released. We do this through our intention. 1000 years ago. Yesterday. All released. 

We move into compassion and love – self love, love of others… We forgive and release. 

As we in this way heal the hurts within, we also heal the hurts on Mother Earth – for there is no separation. We are not just these bodies, separate and individuated. We are Creator-Beings and what we feel ourselves to be, so the world will show itself to be to us. 

The world is our mirror. As we are now stressed, diseased, polluted with self-harm, so is the world. 

Feel this. This is the essence, now, of our shift into higher dimensional existence. As we are, so is our world, our society, the natural world and so on.

As we choose for ourselves – joy, health, wellness, abundance, inclusion, community… we give ourselves these experiences and we see these in our world.

So, this is how we get from this to that. 

If you would experience a world of peace, choose peace within yourself over and over again… peace with all people… peace with all that is. The same with tolerance, acceptance, love, compassion, health, wellness, relationships of sharing and so on. 

Feel the potential in this. We make the world. 

We’ve been doing this for the whole of our time on this planet, but now we do so with awareness, with much greater capacity for compassion and self-love and with intention and strength of will, clarity of purpose and a growing love for all that is. 

Each Human Heart Contributes

I’ve been very engaged in the world over the last two days. 

It calms down a bit this evening and then into the next days the weather is forecast to change dramatically with wet snow and grey skies. 

All of this feels different than ever before as I am changed. My priority is to hold compassion, light, love and joy in my being – not just for myself, but for all the human collective. For what we are is what we transmit; we broadcast our energetic frequencies and affect the collective.

Peace, excitement, orgasmic pleasure, wealth and gratitude are all frequencies I am putting out in this ‘self and collective’ way, and something else as well. 

I used to run a frequency – though at that time I would have called it a belief – of faith in planet Earth. It was when there was a lot of despair about Earth, around 2012. It was – and still is – a faith in the vast creative being that is this planet to make it through and recuperate fully. 

Now, I’m running a frequency of faith in humanity as well. 

We can do this. We ARE doing this. Fear and hate become love and compassion. Violence becomes reconciliation and eventually peace prevails on our planet. 

Together we do this – each heart contributing to the miracle of this transformation of our collective. 

Infinite Creation

I feel like writing poetry, songs. I feel infinitely powerful and creative. 

Okay. This new way is infinitely creative. 

In the moment, I go within, access the vast love and compassion that exist within me, within each of us, then instantaneously fill my being with that love, that compassion. Then from the moment, from what I am, I choose my frequency. It might be gratitude, joy, peace or wellness. 

This choice, this note or vibration or hue – call it what you will – streams forth from every cell of my body, every meridian, every pore of my skin and most powerfully from my third eye, just above and between my eyes. And this is creative. This flow of energy is a dance with World, with Universe. 

And creation is love incarnate. 

There is no telling just how World will give back to me what I have sent out. So, I am learning quickly now not to try to tell how it will be. 

It’s exciting to just keep choosing my frequency in the moment and then to see what will be.