Running out of Road

I was having an imaginary conversation with a random British person in a random British pub. 

And he said something about the times we’re in and asked, "Why would I want to be in Britain when it is so troubled?"

And I said that there is deep trouble everywhere now. 

And he said, “Why is it so?” 

And I said, “Well, we’ve run out of road. We’re done and we are all freaking out about this in our own ways and it looks pretty messy, pretty ugly.” 

I could feel it and yes, this is us now. We’ve run out of 3D road. It is now feeling like,  ‘transition or you will be unable to function.’ 

Pretty much. 

So, it becomes more and more difficult to be in a 3D world, the world that many of us, especially those of us who are older, have been living on for decades. As it becomes so difficult to be in 3D, it is time now to do more than simply hold the energy for humanity. We have been holding faith, holding trust and we can continue to do this. However, it is now time to say things to people here and there. We can sow the seeds of higher consciousness now. 

How do we do this? 

The message is simple; choose love. 

Choose love. 

What does that mean? 

Choose compassion. 

Choose acceptance. 

Choose inclusion. 

Choose connection.

And we'll notice how doing this feels good and leads to ease and joy. 

And we may also notice how not doing this feels really quite awful and leads to disease and suffering. 

Look around, hold compassion and now and then, say something that encourages people to choose love. 

Believe in Humanity

We humans are masterful creators. 

We create all of our drama and problems, even the climate based ones. This is clear to me. I see as if from off-world. 

I see us as a vast collective consciousness, choosing how best to move ourselves from one state of being to a very different state of being and one of the ways in which we are choosing to do this is through a global climate crisis. 

We had other options such as an alien invasion from outer space, planetary disruption through seismic instability or a nuclear war. We’re still playing with that one – pushing the boundaries of our post cold-war reality as far as we can without destroying ourselves here. 

I say here because we are both here and not here; we are vast beings of love and light, deep wisdom, awesome power and infinite determination to complete this project of bringing change to our universe. 

We are so much more than these bodies on this planet in this physical reality. I see and feel all of this very clearly this morning. I feel awed by us. Humanity. 

It is not so much the smaller “I” which thrills me this morning, although I am aware of my own individuated power as a creator; it is the collective human consciousness and creation that moves me today. 

We are masters at creating for ourselves the conflicts and drama that will trigger us, move us, push and pull and guide us into confronting our deepest fears, our guilt and shame so that we can then transmute these and come to wise compassion. 

Our role here has been to be traumatically limited, separate and alone, weak and unable, thus fearful, doubtful, almost tragically truncated. We have given ourselves this experience so that we could come through to true self-love and vast compassion from within the depths of our despair and disability, fear and loathing. 

We have done what we came here to do and now we are navigating the shift from fear to love, from third and fourth dimensionality to fifth dimensionality, from being carbon based and limited life forms to becoming crystalline based beings of light for whom the laws of physics no longer apply. 

To do this, we need to clear our energy fields of all that is not love and joy, peace with what is and complete acceptance of all possibilities. This clearing is our focus now and to help us in completing the clearing, we give ourselves catalyst in the form of triggering events and interactions. The human collective is doing a wonderful job with all of this. 

It looks and feels chaotic and destabilizing and this is exactly how it should look and feel if we are to really push all of our buttons. 

I notice often as I pay attention to the news of the day how we give ourselves really bad news and then how we still seem, collectively if not individually, to be okay. 

For example, our economic outlook is terrible, but our economy is doing really well. This has been true for over six months. And there are many similar examples of seeming crisis and yet ongoing well-being for many of us. 

We can breathe deeply in compassion with our fellow humans who are suffering at this time. At the very same time, we can hold the knowledge that we are not victims; that there are no victims here. We are all beings of vast light and love who are choosing to have these experiences of lack and suffering, disease and limitation. 

We can believe in ourselves and we can believe in humanity. 

We've got this. We don't need to be rescued or 'saved' from anything or anyone. 

Helping Humanity at This Time

I am feeling into the human collective and feeling the terrible sense of guilt, shame and despair that is currently there. It’s freaking intense. 

I’m holding compassion and willing myself to do this because it is almost unbearable. I could say that it is unbearable, but I bear it anyway – like Samuel Beckett’s characters. 

Indeed, the only comparable time I can feel here is the last year or two of the second world war when humanity’s terrible inhumanity became impossible to ignore. 

I felt into the word ‘ignore’ this morning also. Ignorance means not knowing. So, to ignore is to purposefully resist knowing something. I feel how the fear of feeling means for many people that they will do anything they can to avoid it and that means ignoring what is real in our world. 

What is happening now is that it is becoming impossible to ignore what is real in our world. 

For all the talk of ‘fake news,’ it is the truth about ourselves that is actually overwhelming us.

Humans fear. 

Humans hate. 

Humans deny and delude themselves. 

Humans are terribly weak. 

Humans are deeply ashamed of their humanity much of the time. 

Humans fear of lack has driven us to want more and more and always more so that we are destroying the planet’s eco-systems. 

These are truths about humanity that are very difficult for us to bear. Yet bear them we must.

All along on this journey of becoming I have said that courage is needed. Now more than ever we need to choose courage to face our own feelings and choose wisdom to transmute them with love and compassion. 

What we face is bleak, yet beautiful; allow yourself to feel as this is your strength.

Deepening our Sense of Purpose in Being Here

As I read an article in The Atlantic, I have been feeling into the question: What is the brain? 

The brain is how we bring our electro-magnetic mental being into our physical being, which is at this time still carbon based and chemical-physical. 

The endocrine and hormonal systems are how we bring our emotional being, which feels almost energetic to me, into our physical being. 

We use our mental and emotional sense, made ‘real’ to us in our physicality by the systems given above, to bring our energetic and crystalline being into our physical reality. 

As we bring our energetic being - which is multi-dimensional, subtle, etheric and eternal - into our physical reality, we bring unconditional love, the sense of ourselves as love incarnate, into the world of the physical and this is our true work at this time. 

This ‘realization’ of our mental, emotional, energetic, multi-dimensional, divine being in the physical world imbues and informs the physical world with divine love, unconditional love, compassion and the vast wisdom of non-judgment, non-resistance, surrender, faith, trust and flow. 

As I delve into this sense of how we are like lightning rods for the divine-we-are, catching it in all its subtlety and grounding it into the sacred ground of this planet, I feel more clear about the true purpose of our being here – both angel and ape – on this planet. 

The vast being that is this planet does not mind nearly as much as we think it does about pollution and destruction of habitats. We mind and we should; we have as part of our DNA sense of ourselves an idea of being stewards here. Indeed, this is written into the Holy Bible which informs a large part of the human collective. 

As I feel into what it means to be human, I get a sense of being of service to the vast All That Is, descending into physicality and forgetting our etheric essence of pure unconditional love so that we can experience the hell of separation from Source - from God if you choose to use this word and it is not inappropriate to do so. We do this as an act of profound service and as we rise in consciousness and become aware of our soul-selves, we complete the contract and reclaim our divinity, our Oneness with All That Is. 

The world heals itself; there is no limit to what can be and no separation from Source in the natural world. 

The pain and suffering are ours and are of our creation and serve to illuminate the All with the profound gift of compassion. 

What I am attempting to convey is deeper and broader than this in its totality, but for now, this gives a sense of it. 

Higher Dimensional Perspective

Just before I slept, if I recall correctly, I was able to feel what we are as non-physical. It is as if the veil lifted and I could glimpse us as energetic beings. 

I sensed colour and surge of energy but somehow discrete beings and the sense of being able to ‘fit’ ourselves into physical vehicles of sense and experience. It was fascinating. 

Now, I feel the sense of it, but also feel it slip away. I feel that I have been given knowledge which is largely, as yet, forbidden. 

I am profoundly aware lately of the 5th dimensional perspective which is completely unconcerned with 3rd dimensional matters of ego-mind and the yes and no of the physical. The 5th dimensional perspective observes benignly and compassionately, with unconditional love and acceptance of what is, breathing in and out easily with what is and in joy for what comes. 

The 5th dimensional perspective feels like a balm for the turbulent fears and flailing of the 3rd dimensional drama. 

The 5th dimensional perspective and being is the unconditional love that I, feeling emotion here as I write this, have been sending out and sending out again and again in a devoted service to this world that I ken. 

That which I saw with my mind’s eye, that energetic being that we are, is effortlessly holding this 5th dimensional perspective; indeed, it is this love, it is this benign observer of the “sturm und drang” of our work now to clear and release. It holds space for our suffering and striving to be resolved. 

It is so immensely loving that it transcends, and easily transforms, our supposed crisis into a vast act of service to the All that Is. 

And we are this. It is not something outside of us, hovering over us and eventually, maybe, coming to our rescue. We are this. 

More and more as we do the important work of clearing our own fears and residual shadows of guilt, anger and trauma, we embody this 5th dimensional perspective and radiate it from us, like lighthouses on the storm-lashed and hard-rock coast of humanity’s becoming. 

I feel this within me and rejoice. I feel this and am in awe of the times in which we now stand, brought here by our own courage and love, for this too - this intensity, this creative chaos, is ours, created by us in service to the evolution of our human family. 

I can feel the whole planet becoming as we become. We are supported and spurred on by all that surrounds us here, both the physical and the energetic - that which we can perceive with our physical senses and that which we feel moving within and around us. We are not alone in this process and we are far from being forsaken. Loved beyond all measure are we, even as we witness our own creations of horror, terror and suffering. 

Steady as she goes, beloved kin. Having come this far, we shall proceed as that 5th dimensional perspective beckons and steers us to a world of peace and joy, wisdom, compassion and conscious creation for the highest good of All. 

Exploring Power

I was reading in The Atlantic about Newt Gingrich and how he truly believes that his acts of willful and purposeful destruction of common ground and common sense in the legislative assembly of his country was a good thing. 

Every ‘monster’ is convinced that he or she is a saviour. Stephen Leacock wrote hilariously about the harm that ‘do-gooders’ do. I suddenly saw ‘power’ everywhere in the world, being explored, highlighted, seen more clearly now than before. 

Walking, I asked myself, “What is my power?” And the answer came immediately. My power is all in my heart. My power is love. It is joy, wellness,  gratitude. It is frequency and the way that frequency moves us from one timeline to another. 

Until very recently, and even now to some extent, we cannot perceive this shift from one timeline to another; we are not aware of it and so we do not have any incentive to work with our power in this way. We haven’t been able to really perceive the feedback – we just are and then we are on a different timeline – seamlessly. 

So, as an example, I’m in resistance to... something. The weather – say – and my experience is that the weather is stopping me from doing something, enjoying something and my experience is then that I am disgruntled, a bit frustrated and then I am short-tempered with my husband – a bit annoyed and so on it goes. Or, I’m feeling resistance to the weather and I go into my heart and breathe and shift to being with the weather, finding that love within my heart chakra and shifting into that vibration. And my mood is immediately shifted and so is my experience of all that is around me. I have shifted from one timeline to another. 

We tend to think of timeline shifts as being these big things – like, on this timeline I have this job and on this other timeline I have this other job. And yes, this is infinitely possible and occurring, but timeline shifts are also small... so, the snippy response that doesn’t happen, or the loving gesture that does happen, the joyful flow into taking a walk even though it is raining and then much later in the day, still radiant with the beauty of that walk, the conversation with a friend filled with kindness. 

From each moment’s state of being, we create. We are in an endless ‘create your own adventure’ story book. And at every moment of self-awareness, we have the power to choose, to create from our being. That is power. 

I was feeling into what power is not. It is not at all what most of us still think that power actually is... the imposition of one's will or vision on others. This can seem benign, visionary, helpful... and so on, but it is only the imposition of one's will on others. From the parent or school teacher on up to municipal councillors and regional representatives and leaders of political parties and police officers and so on. We are all negotiating,  more or less peacefully, how our shared reality will be. 

But this is 3rd dimensional and 4th dimensional push and pull, this versus that. 

5th dimensional creation feels totally different. It is joy and love, being in joyful resonance with what is and in complete acceptance of what is. It is antithetical to us in deep ways... what about injustice? What about cruelty? 

Yeshua and the angels have said over and over again that love is the answer. And we respond with, “What the fuck are you talking about? I can’t love torture! I can’t love corruption.” And yet....

Because where I live, in my world, joy abounds and people are kind. 

I am aware of corruption and torture, starvation and global systems failures and collapse, but I do not experience these; I experience beauty, joy, love and more joy, more beauty and so on. 

We are being shown just how quickly now the 3D 4D world is ending, no longer viable. And through this experience we are being triggered to heal our trauma, face our deepest fears and realize the essential powerlessness of the 3D 4D paradigm. How ironic it all is! 

Humans are supposedly the most powerful beings on this world and yet. And yet. We are helpless. Many are hopeless. Where is our power? And don’t give it away to some supposedly merciful God who will save us. That’s not how the story ends. 

Love is the answer. When you transmute your trauma and fear, guilt and shame, become the love that you actually have always been deep deep inside of yourself and then extend that love out into the whirling world around you, you transform your experience of what is; you become love in a world of joy and love. 

It’s a tall order, asking us to accept all of this seemingly unacceptable reality. Maintain that steady level gaze... as if the entirety of humanity were your child who is hurt and afraid and lashing out because of the hurt and the fear. 

Imagine that unconditional love that you would offer to a friend who told you that she had cleaned out her joint bank account – shared with her husband – because she is addicted to gambling... or... whatever ... name your poison. 

Every single supposed wrong that we see in the world today is our wrong as well as our neighbour’s wrong, as well as our supposed enemy’s wrong. It isn’t actually wrong at all. 

It is the story that we have been telling ourselves for eons. And it is coming to an end. And it ends with us deeply processing all of the trauma that has ensued and coming into peace with it, coming into unconditional love as a default setting in us. 

We do this by realizing that it all served the All as it informed the All. And then loving ourselves and all of humanity for our service to the All. 

What happens as we become unconditional love is that we begin to radiate joy and love more and more and we then literally and actually shift our timeline and shift our timeline and shift our timeline again and again and end up in radiant joy and unconditional love that knows nothing but radiant joy and unconditional love. 

We become love and light, joy and gladness. 

And then we will begin a new adventure. 

My Invitation to You

Whether you call yourself a Christian, a Buddhist, a Muslim or a Sikh, a pagan, or a Sufi, or a Jew, this invitation is for you.

I invite you to seek within your own heart for the love of God, the divine love that is inherent in all things and that is the Source of all things.

I invite you to breathe the intention to expand this love within yourself and then - on the exhalation of your breath - to share this divine and unconditional love with all that is the world.

I invite you to breathe this divine love to Nature, to pavement, to all whom you meet and to the billions whom you will never meet, but who are part of your human family.

I invite you to feel the light and the warmth of this radiant love in your body, in the soles of your feet as you walk this sacred Earth, in your hands as you pay for your groceries, in your throat as you sing, in your chest as you talk to your friend and in your forehead as you read the news of the day.

I invite you to imagine our world as a place where this divine love grows and sows harmony and joy, solutions not yet imagined and peace not yet attained.

I invite you to feel into the energies of the times in which we find ourselves and perhaps wonder,

"If not now, when?

If not me, then who?"