Essential for Lightworkers

I walked very early this morning on a gravel road surrounded by a forest that stood absolutely still and silent without even a breath of wind. It was the time of the gloaming - that brief time just before the light grows strong enough to allow for colours to show in the world. It is a magical time of half light and half darkness - somehow holding the best of them both. I saw, just for a moment or two, about twenty to thirty feet up under a tall forest canopy, a shimmer that held love, healing and redemption in its grey pulse. 

It is neither light nor darkness and yet it is comprised of them both, partakes of them both. It is like a marriage of all that is good and all that is evil in our world; it is that place or space wherein they love each other and together make something greater and more loving than either of them are on their own. And as I write this, I am aware that I am writing about light as well as darkness. 

This joining and being All Love Loving All is greater than just the light on its own. I can’t explain why exactly, except that it is integral and indeed central to the planet Earth project at this time.

I found myself standing and being aware of all that I have just written here – although less intellectually, verbally aware of it. I then began to do light language. 

The light language, as always, comes through me and is not directed by that which I am as human being. I am a channel for the light language, a universal language of energetic vibration, to come through. 

The light language transmission was directed at this love infused mingling of the darkness and the light and was essentially conveying this message: “You are greater together than apart. You are love becoming something new in the universe. You are creating something new in the universe. You are doing something incredibly powerful and important, something never before done. You are blessed in this. You are loved in this (by me – by All that Is).” 

And then sometime later, having descended Cooke North almost to Schweizer Road, I did light language again, again directed into that space where the light and the dark together make something that is comprised of them both but is neither one nor the other - that is something vastly transmutational and redemptive. 

By then, the light was greater and the space where the two co-mingle in neither-one-nor-the-other-balance-and-becoming, that space where together they become something other than and greater than either one of them alone, that space was now only to be found low down and tucked in under lower hanging boughs and crouched among rocks on the side hidden from the sunrise. 

The light language then said, “You who continue to hide your darkness from the light, who continue to fear the light for what it might find in you, come out and be loved, come out and be brought into the healing and the joy of light’s loving caress. Allow yourself to be known; there is nothing to fear.” 

And it is thus that we create a world that is no longer riven by polarizing hatred and fear, but rather holding a great peace born of the light’s unconditionally compassionate acceptance of the darkness and the great courage that the darkness finds within itself to allow itself to be seen in all of its flawed and shameful fear and loathing. 

This is a great work and it is being done at this time and it is ours to contribute to and support. 

If you call yourself a lightworker, know that your light’s greatest work is with the darkness both within you and all around you in the world. 

Much love and appreciation flows from me to you.

Finding Sacred Ground

I am becoming a person whom I enjoy being. Yet I am still running an old escapist energy of wanting to change my external circumstances so I’ll feel happier or more fulfilled or… fill in the blank. 

Well, at least I recognize it. 

There is currently a person in my life who represents something to be freed from. In truth, there is no improvement or solution outside of myself and no moment is better than any other. All is perfect and for my highest good. Yet my reaction to this person is so strong in me: disgust, revulsion, distaste, dissatisfaction, judgment – he seems to me to be so unhealthy, negative, toxic, hurt, angry and blaming everything and everyone but himself. 

He is a mirror, helping me to see what still is not love in me. I run a story that he stops me from doing what I want to do, having what I want to have. And when I run that old story, I am inevitably unhappy. 

How do I break through this? 

Send unconditional love… be where you truly are… accept… 

This is an old relationship pattern that I have struggled with for decades. I ask my guides, my higher self: “Teach me, help me to learn what I need to learn here, to see what I need to see, to completely clear, thank and release this pattern, this story, this emotion of blame and feeling like a victim.” 

I created the experience of this pattern so I could see it and clear it from where I am now. I took myself into delusion and out of the truth of my being. That truth, to which I returned again and again yesterday, is the ground of my being here in physicality. 

Like my recently discovered joy in sobriety, I deeply value this turn and return to the truth - the ground - of where I am, who I am, what I am now. 

When I use the word ‘ground,’ it is as the base upon which the soles of my feet are placed and the electrical grounding as well. It seems important to recognize this. 

This turning returning to my truth is essential integrity and … the words wholeness and completion come. It is there from whence I truly shine unconditional love, transmutational violet light, golden Christ consciousness (not quite the same as unconditional love… somewhat more than), the living light of my perfect whole being in the world. 

I see clearly now that in truth I cannot shine these when I am in any aspect of denial of my being. 

I run stories – have done so for many years – and it is time now for those stories to end. I feel this exigency within me lately. 

The question, turn and return, is very simple: Who am I now? What am I now? Where am I now? 

Wherever it might be, I like this place very much; it is sacred ground. 

Within the Storm

Outside rages yet another storm. 

The season has been uncommonly stormy as if human consciousness affects the weather. 

I shine equanimity. The patience of trees is a model for me. I did not walk this morning, but when I do, I can feel into the surrounding forest; it is invariably at peace with what is and this attitude of acceptance is a comfort to me. 

In the world of humanity these days there is a great deal of noise, “sound and fury,” to quote William Shakespeare, “signifying nothing.” 

If we ask ourselves a perfectly reasonable question in the face of all this: What do I choose for myself? We could not do much better than to emulate the example given by hawthorne, beech and hemlock. 

When I feel, from the heart of me, on an inhalation of fresh mountain air, the essence of their being, it is love. It is peace. It is wellness with their state – broken branches or not – gale force winds or a rare calm morning. 

I breakfast on that energetic and attitudinal ambrosia and thus I am well and shine a light of peace within the storm. 

Tough Times for Tough Light Workers

Spring is everywhere around me and I’m acutely aware of how quickly and inexorably I manifest from my frequency. 

My husband and I have both been volatile in the past few days, but doing well regardless.

About a week ago, the frequency of joy seemed effortless for me. Since Saturday, so about three days, it has felt almost, or actually, beyond reach. This reminds me of 2010 and I’m comparing my self then to myself now – which is kind of the point here as well. 

My 5^th D self is close and strong – a breath away. As I stepped out of doors yesterday and chose experience and acceptance of experience, I was there. 

Yet there’s an anxiety in me right now – I’m getting that it is not mine. I send unconditional love to this. I tell it, “You are safe. You are a vast and eternal being of love and light. And all you experience is your creation.” 

Still, that thread, that pulse of “what if” runs through my energetic body. And I ground it with violet light. 

Tough times for tough light workers as we show ourselves humanity’s absolute worst – not as something from way back or from far away, but from right here and right now. 

That violet light really did the trick – for now.  

Passion of Ascension

This passion I feel in my body and in my energy field is electric excitement and jumping joy, easy confidence, vast and capable compassion, ringing freedom, undeniable power and exultant connection and expansion – the whole of it sounding out in waves of symphonic wash and flow and radiance. 

There is no lack nor want in it. 

And this is so important that I repeat: There is no lack nor want in it. 

It fills me with pulsations of energy. 

And all I can do is embody it and create from it – not only on its forward edge, but spherically, multi-dimensionally ~ every lifetime, expression, emanation ~ every story infused and empowered, cradled, adored, blessed and coloured by that which I am now. 

The vast wisdom of compassion, the golden flow, going everywhere and permeating everything ~ I feel it as wisdom because I feel it as consciousness. 

It transforms this universe now, from here. 

Joy and Delight

My energetic frequency is joy and delight, complete faith, acceptance, surrender and flow. The surrender is a breathing into what is; it is a surrender to the here now both within and without.

I’m luxuriating in free time, being well rested, the -20 celsius stillness outside under a clear blue sky. I’m breathing into, sinking into, the relatively quiet time of mid-winter with great joy laughing and dancing within me. 

This new beingness dances joyfully with what is – whatever it is. 

And the gift that I gave to myself last April at Walden Pond, in that vast sky lit room, the gift of sitting with pen and paper with no expectation, I’m enjoying that gift right now. 

When I got home from that journey out and back, I realized that this place is as beautiful and peaceful, the energies as nurturing, as at Walden. In fact, here it is quieter. Here stretches such a luxurious skein of beauty, peace and plenty that I have no need or desire to go anywhere else. 

I remember sitting in that room ~ how I felt freedom and space to be ~ how precious these seemed, how dear; I feel them now ~ freedom and space to be, joy and delight. 

I’ve been in this state before ~ a state of apparently heightened appreciation. I’ve experienced this when driving or walking; it’s not so uncommon for me. Yet, I feel that I shift my being now such that this heightened appreciation is a constant within me. I noticed it on the drive to and from ~ especially from ~ Montreal the other day under a white sky surrounded by white snow, every tree branch a grace note as my husband and I sped along the snow-blown highway. I noticed it while visiting my mum and in the grocery store and at the singalong at Grace Church Hall and, indeed, at the singalong I led at the assisted living facility last week. I notice it more and more these days. 

I notice it as I look out, as I am here in this chair. I am no longer dependent on what is “outside” of me for what I feel aka what I experience. Like the refugee in a wheelchair experiencing life as joy; our song of higher dimensional freedom sounds in the world at this time. 

Personal Power

Joy. Joy so intense that it flows from me in streams. 

As I walked this morning in an exquisite landscape of snow and winter sky, I spoke to all the world’s darkness, fear, rage, hate, exclusion, judgments and all fear-based expressions.

And I said, “I see you. I hear you. I acknowledge you. Okay. Yes. And guess what? I will be love regardless. I will include you in that love. I will be joy and peace and understanding.”

And the fear wailed and roared and thrashed about.

And I said, “Yes. Even so.”

And the fear said, “I can kill you.”

And I laughed and said, “No. You cannot kill me. For I am eternal love that has no end. There is nothing more powerful than the love that I am. And guess what? You are this also. Yes. You are this love and you do not know it. But you will. One day soon, when you are ready. You will.”

And this is the level gaze of love incarnate, of divine love. 

And this level gaze is one option now, one way of looking at the world. This level gaze of love incarnate is one possible response. 

It is the way that a friend looks at a friend who is speaking her hard-earned truth. 

It is the way that we look at each other when we are being the wisest part of ourselves. 

It is what I now choose to be within myself. 

It feels like angel choirs and whale song and star light.

Yes. Even so. I will be this.